Thursday, November 17, 2005
Time to Think:
There's not much better time to think about life then when you are in the waiting room of a hospital and then when you are in a room waiting for heart and lung test results to come back.
The thoughts primarily started out as admitting my own fears to myself. Most of all my fear of death. Until I was reminded that I am not home...no matter where I am on this earth or who I am with, I am not complete or fully at home until I have reached my final resting place with the Lord. My fear comes from leaving what is behind, as well as the unknown things of heaven. How I desire to have FAITH and CONFIDENCE in who Christ is!
I sat there in my hospital bed sitting next to my best friend Jared (pictured above), receiving more phone calls and text messages from more friends than I can even count! The care and response from people around me is truly unbelievable. I sat there knowing that not only was I not alone physically (thanks to Jared and Kari), but I am never facing anything by myself.
As I waited with thoughts of how the test results could come back, Jared offered to read from the Word for me...I asked him to read 2 Chronicles 16:7-9 "Because you have put your trust in the king of Aram instead of in the LORD your God, you missed your chance to destroy the army of the king of Aram. Don't you remember what happened to the Ethiopians and Libyans and their vast army, with all of their chariots and horsemen? At that time you relied on the LORD, and he handed them all over to you. The eyes of the LORD search the whole earth in order to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him."
There is so much to glean from that passage. The first of which is how I know often I just put my trust in man, rather then that of God. It is one thing to say it, and a completely different thing to be waiting for potential lfe threatening test results back. I was challenged tonight to put my trust in Christ alone.
The next thing I took from this was how I desire for my heart to be fully committed to Christ-so that when God's eyes are searching my heart, He will see His love has won me over.
Life truly is a vapor. It is here one minute and gone the next. I very well could have heard completely different news tonight. God still has ways to grow in me and is blessing me with more time here on earth to love Him and love people. I am glad. It makes me think...what will I do tomorrow to treat it as it really is...