Stillness

In the stillness of my heart
I am unsettled at best
Needing Your help like I can't believe
In the quietness of night
So much that ills my heart
seems to make its way to the surface
Rearing its ugly head I try so hard to stiffle
It is when I am alone that I am able to feed my hungry heart.
The topics I dare not speak of
For the fear of admitting the absences I feel the most
Fearing the same questions will again arise and the same
void answers will reply
It is in the stillness I seek solace
and in stillness my ambiguity seeks resolution